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RelapseIt’s like counting
Saturn’s rings,
hash marks
along your limbs -
remembering a time
when

‘just one more’

made you feel better.

- & you’re sitting there
wondering why
Draco, stuck in limbo
always looks like he’s

falling.

UneditedWe cry.
We scream.
We fight for our dream.

We scream.
We cry.
We're just waiting to die.

The same emotions
with a different drive.
Sometimes dead, sometimes alive.

The same in one way,
different in another
brother and sister, sister and brother.

So close in feeling,
so different in the end.
Falling apart, or finally on the mend?

Which am I?
Will I ever know?
Fighting to stay or ready to go?

Maybe I'm both,
in some impossible way.
Emotions oddly mixed everyday.

Wouldn't surprise.
I'm such a freak.
Excuse me, I laugh, I should call it "unique"

Battle in my MindEat.
Don't eat.
Take it easy.
Work out until you pass out.
Get help.Tell someone.
Keep it a secret. It's only for you and me.
You're perfect.
You're worthless.
You're beautiful.
You're disgusting.
Why won't you listen?
They don't understand.
Let me help you.
You don't understand.
Show me.
No!
I love you..

WorthlessWorthless,
the name that cuts like a knife,
Me,
it's all that you see inside,
My heart,
is breaking with every breath I take
The lies,
the only thing I can't seem to face.

In The Daylight

In The Daylight

A false downfall
An unexpected revival

Sunset to moonset
Shining through darkness

Life...redefined
Death...redesigned

In the valley of promises- I will fear no end
On the brink of weakness- I will ascend
-
Roads of the toughest
Paths of the darkest

I conditioned my flawed limits
So fearful memories won't be paralytic

I had to raise my own spirit
Strength and endurance become so vivid

A chance for change / A moment of fate
A time to make peace / A brief feeling of creed
A sealing of my slate / A silencing of my mistakes
A secret ready to be freed / A chain soon-to-be incomplete

Pain and peace are infinite
Judge the wrat

Ode to the boy with diamonds for eyesI think we were a collision course waiting to happen
And when I think back to the day when we first
Stumbled across one another, red sneakers hanging off gutters
Cherry cola voice overs and dilated pupils
We led one another on to believe in the night sky of connect the dot constellations

You wanted to dissect me and peer into the insides of my lungs
Only to find witches breath and dandelions
Slicing iron vowels you locked your hands in mine
And we fell into the static of dreaming disease
The operating table broke away to reveal a sky that never existed
And we couldn't help but laugh at the irony
Because wishing was never an option
The ane

wallflower clippingsthere's scar tissue in her throat,
swollen around the words she never said;
dark rings around her eyes
like planets unremembered, and
a staleness to her touch,
the crystalline Dead Sea.

she's living like a story
that's already been told
"if no one loved you
would you mean anything at all?"

in that moment,
we forget to exist.

Our MasksThe masks we wear are perfect
Never loose and rarely tight
They keep us safe from others
And keep our demons out of sight

They smile when we are broken
And laugh when we simply must
No blemish or imperfection
A creation that will never rust.

I seldom ever remember
Who I am without my mask
That to peel off that layer
Is such a daunting task

All others carry one as well
Wherever they may go
And no matter what is on their minds
Only the molded mask will show.

The lies they preach in public
Or the scars along their wrists
Are left mute to others knowledge
Ignorance is such a splendid gift

My mask is oh so perfect
Not a crack will show
Alway

We are the King and Queen of Broken DreamsStanding still in a mine field, staring at all we have left.
We were so young, we didn’t stop to think.
Now we’re in a car crash, teetering on the brink.
If you were to leave me now, I don’t know what I’d do.

It was a whirl wind romance,
A light when all was black, a spark of something when all was bleak.
You swept me off my feet and made me feel brand new.
I thought we could live forever and I’m certain you did to.

We built a house without foundations
And now we’re falling down,
Everything’s crumbling around us, time slipping through out fingertips.
People used to walk past us but they were to drunk to see,
That our lives are coming apart around us, there is no light as far as we can see.

There was no fire to start with,
Just two broken things, the world had left behind.
The casualties of other people’s dreams of power, money and control,
Spat out onto the curb to rot away and die.
We never stood a chance or so

Her SideTomorrow she'll be gone,
but what can you say?
Nothing can help her.
The pain won't go away.

But she would've stopped,
you could've said no.
That's what she wanted,
someone to say don't go.

That someone wanted her,
or at least would try.
That someone would grieve
if she were to die.

But you just stared,
nodding your head,
and she realized the truth
with a feeling of dread.

No one wanted her.
No one cared.
Not even you,
with the the love you shared.

So she said good-bye,
and you watched her leave.
She may have had the rope,
but now you can't breathe.

LonelyLonely.
Unnoticed.
People don't even look
when they walk by.
Always ignored...
Nobody even asks my ideas,
my opinion.
Nobody even knows
who I am.
When people see me,
they either ignore me,
or ask a question:
"Who are you?"
But they don't even bother
to listen to my response:
"I'm Canada."
Forgotton.
Forgotton by everyone.
Forgotton by my friends, my allies.
Maybe one day
Someone will remember my name.
Canada.

Honesty Written

from the

heart.

No eraser.

Falling off the EdgeDo you know what it feels like?
To nearly fall off the edge,
but not quite...
just so that you're dangling;
clinging for your worthless life
lest it fall into the sea of loneliness.
Your callused, pink fingers turning
to a shade of purplish-red of pain
as it does it best to hold on.

Splash.

In the sea of loneliness,
everything is crisp, translucent.
There is nothing around you,
you are alone...
unlike other people,
you have no one
clamouring to save you;
you have no one
diving in to get you out.

There is no point
screaming for help,
you will only waste
the little time and air you have left.
You only have the darkness
of the sea envelop

Lost In ConfusionLost In Confusion

My mind is spinning without a rest
Emotions whirl and twirl around
A merry-go-round gaining speed
Until the world blurrs before my eyes
What's happening? What's going on?

The simplest thought slips away
Right from my mind, fading so fast
Trying to focus, I stare and stare
Until my eyes are heavy and unclear.
I don't understand, what is going on..

Emotions rise and fall again
Within the blink of an eye
I'm crying, laughing, and depressed
A roller-coaster ride that never ends
Am I losing my mind in this?

I try to close my eyes and rest
But the world spins me around
I feel like I am failing this test
Voices and noises echo

Deactivatedthere are voids and black holes
and wounds,
papercuts sinking deep into
finger fissures
only to meet the unmarred love
of bones, strong and
bare and pure.

dark oceans are bleached
into tears that leave nothing
but sea salt in my lips

and my words are injustice
to the death of
your poetry.

this is me
drowning,
trying to be
you

trying to preserve the ardor
of your words
and the honey sweet taste
of your passion

it's also
how my lungs work
(when I don't read something from you
I die more than a little on the inside).

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A sight broke through your lips. Thursdays crushed every bit of energy out of your body, and no matter how hard you tried, your legs wouldn’t put up the effort to fight back. You stumbled to the side and toppled onto an advertised street bench, displaying the “healthy results of a good teeth brushing.” The irony settled.
You couldn’t remember why you had skipped work that day, but you think it had something to do with an annoying comrade and a lengthy swig of imported whisky. Everything was a daze, you were lost on the streets of London, and you were most likely going to be fired the next day. Lovely. As far as you

Kiss me goodbyeOnly you
Could make me this way
With your beating heart strong
And the eyes that glimmer
In their special way

Ignorance is bliss
And silence is golden
But duck-tape is silver
And I'll tape my mouth shut
So I won't scream while holdin'
On

I can't help
But to fall in love with you
So hard I fell
Hoplessly drowning
All for you
You
And you again
So hard I lost
Hoplessly calling
All for you
You
And you again
For you again

Speaking louder
Than ever before
There will be a day
When you'll realize your love
And come knocking at my door

You'll hold
My hand tight
And tell me you love me
Let me hold you in my arms
Before

The girl with the rope colored hairThere once was a girl
With rope colored hair
Which she kept in a loose bun
So she could dream without distraction

She chewed cinnamon gum
On her way home from school
Only on Mondays and Fridays
For ten dimes a pack

She sat alone in the front during math
Where she wrote furiously
About her life beyond life
And drowned out the lessons lies

When people asked her
About her feelings and fears
She'd whisper "i'm fine"
And walk away

Her eyes homed storms
That raged when she screamed
And softened when she cried
They had silver trimming

While she walks home on the cold
Her rope colored hair flies in her face
And as it begins to sprinkle
She smile

R e p e a t.I'm the type of girl
Who has to sing the song when
I read the lyrics.

S o r r y.I'm sorry I'm random
I'm sorry I'm odd
I'm sorry I'm weird
I'm sorry I'm strange
I'm sorry I'm different
I'm sorry I'm me.

(Not-so)Perfect LifeCan you imagine a life
Where you were always around the ones
That you hold dear to your heart
And that they never turned on you
Not even once
A life where you never hurt anyone
A life without bad karma
A life where you felt content
Every second
Of every day
Can you imagine life where you weren't locked up
In a brick house
For so many long years
Staring out of the window
Dreaming about your freedom
That you're to afraid to grab on your own
Can you?
Me either.

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I'm just a girl

by ~Calypso-Dawn, Oct 8, 2012, 6:52:18 AM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

I'm just a girl
With ruffled hair
And sore eyes
I'm just a girl
Who likes to write
And can't draw
I'm just a girl
With childish fantasies
And faded dreams
I'm just a girl
With cold hands
And a warm heart

That no one can see.

I'm just a girlby ~Calypso-Dawn

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~ShiningMidnightStar Oct 9, 2012 Student Writer

That was really pretty...

~Calypso-Dawn Oct 10, 2012

Thank you so much Star!!

~ShiningMidnightStar Oct 12, 2012 Student Writer

You're welcome!

~Merikuu Oct 9, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

This is really sweet in a sad way. Beautifully written(:

~Calypso-Dawn Oct 10, 2012

Thank you so much, I appreciate it!

~Merikuu Oct 11, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

You're welcome^^

~laffinia Oct 8, 2012

so true.
well written

~Calypso-Dawn Oct 10, 2012

I appreciate it, thanks.

~oceanofstars Oct 8, 2012

Grammatically, I think it should be "With cold hands".

~Calypso-Dawn Oct 8, 2012

Oh! I didn't see that, thank you for catching that!

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